It has been crazy

This last week has been crazy, it feels like two in one. I worked a few extra days of overtime trying to save up for Vegas in about two months. I hope we can go and have a great time. My computer has really been acting up lately so the few times I've tried to get on and blog I've given up because it frustrates me so much. Last week I weighed in at 177.4. I lost another pound! And then the chaos started.

Friday I went to the mall with my mom. My brother signed up to be in the Navy and she needed some moral support. I'm very proud of him but he's my mom's youngest so it's hard for to see him growing up. We did tons of walking that day and I burned almost 3000 calories and only took in about 1600. I was feeling so great.

 Then I lost my bodybugg display. I was devastated. I just bought it and they don't come cheap (about $60 since it's constantly on "sale"). It has helped me tremendously in loosing any weight. Without it I don't know how many calories I burn unless I am constantly plugging my bodybugg in. And honestly that is just not possible. I know someday I won't use my bugg. I don't want to wear it forever. But it makes life easier while I'm loosing weight. I will cross the bridge of not wearing my bodybugg when I get to my goal weight.

I tried to stay strong and just stick to around 1400-1600 calories a day. Hoping I'd take in less than I burned. I'm an emotional eater, I'm working really hard to learn when I'm hungry and when I'm just trying to fill a void. The display really helps with that because I can see how many calories I've burned and if I really need food or not. I'm already getting better at identifying if I am really hungry or just sad or angry.

Saturday I took X to my mom's because she was going to watch him this week while I worked. She pretty much unloaded the bombshell that my parents are separating and it's getting pretty nasty. I love my mom and we've always been more friends than mother/daughter so I was the one she vented to about all of this. It's honestly messed with me some.

Tack on my lack of sleep, traveling so far for work after months, stress at work and I became a bowl of emotions. I did pretty well at keeping within my calories for each day though. I am proud of this but I failed at working out at all. I want to take my stress filled energy and use it to workout but I'm having a hard time when I'm so tired after getting only 4 or 5 hours of sleep. I know this is just and excuse, heck maybe I'd sleep better if I did my workouts.

I am on vacation from work so I'm going to really focus on getting into a routine with my workouts. I haven't lost my total drive, I just need to overcome the part of me that says it is just easier to hang at home than go outside. Plus I found my bugg, which makes me want to push that much harder.

This week I gained .4 pounds. Not horrible. Could be due to a million things. All the stress, not eating enough, eating too much, not working out at all. Either way I just hope next week I will be back on track.

Sorry for the scattered, rambling post. I just wanted to touch base but it's late and I am sooo ready for bed. :)