Re-evaluating

First things first I did good yesterday. I actually should have eaten more I think, I'm not sure if it's good to have such a large deficit all the time.

If you can't tell (my handwriting is horrible.) I had a deficit 1498.

Burned 2503 total

Anyways I have been thinking a lot the last few days about the changes I'm making food wise. I have been trying to be realistic when it comes to my "diet". I try not to think of it as a diet because that seems temporary to me. I want this to be a while lifestyle change, not just something to loose weight. I know if I just eat a certain way to loose weight I won't ever kept it off. I also know I am going to eat pizza and fast food now and then. It's not ideal. I hope someday I will be eating all homemade food but if I say I won't ever eat these things I will binge when I do. It will be forbibben. I don't want to forbid myself anything, just moderate it.

Some of my weaknesses so to speak are junk food (chips, dips mostly) and soda. Which is why you see chips and dip on my food log yesterday. I dished out a small serving and was totally satisfied with it for the most part. For like 5 minutes after I ate them I had to urge to just go get the bag and container and just eat. I distracted myself by playing with my son. I didn't even think about it again until I went to bed last night.

Soda is a little different. I want it to be more of a special occasions type thing. I immediately went to get one with lunch yesterday, opened it and took a few sips. I realized I wasn't even enjoying it so I put it back in the fridge for my husband later. I got the urge to get one again today but resisted and I don't even want one now. I'm going to save them for times when I really want them and will enjoy them. Otherwise it's so easy for me to keep drinking and drinking them. That is a lot of empty calories.

Fast food, I'm ashamed to admit how much I have eaten in the past. I'm really trying to not eat it as much or at all. I use to get it every night coming home from work. Lately I've been trying to eat before I leave work. It's tricky to pack that much, especially now that I'm staying away from home for my whole rotations. I can't really leave stuff at the house I'm staying at because everything is up for grabs. Anyways I've started eating these healthy choice fresh mixers most nights. I don't now exactly how much healthier than fast food this really is. But they are less calories and I don't feel quiet as blah after eating them. If anyone has some suggestions I'm open to them. I just need things I can keep in my car because I don't really have the space at work to leave 4 nights worth of dinners. These at least don't spoil in the 100 degree weather.